Thinking too much

My first finished song. My first song! Finished! Can't believe it! I feel like I've climbed Everest. Lets face it, I'm no musician and a bit technologically challenged when it comes to recording software, but I've done it and proud of myself. If you can be bothered to listen and tell me what you think, I'd be chuffed. But even if you and everyone else hates it I'll still keep going because its made me very happy doing it. Funny really coz this one is pretty sad, though the end is optimistic... like me! I've got a few on the go and the next one I'm going to try to finish is really HAPPY! Maybe I'll put it up as it is.... bits of words and vocal scribbles and chord sequences I love playing, albeit not very competently. Plan A was to point my webcam towards a blue sky with fluffy white clouds. I like to have a Plan B in case the weather's crap, which it was, but anyway it was dark when I wanted to make this so I lit a few candles and my lovely cat Pavlova has done a grand job of showing how she keeps her white bits so gleaming. xxxxx I'm lost and alone in that heartbreak land Where all hope is gone and I don't have a plan I'm down on my knees too tired to stand All of the times you put me down All of my words I never quite found Were all of your lies just joking around like you said? You were so true but never to me I saw all the signs but still I didn't see How many ways just let me count The tricks of your trade all that self-doubt Was I thinking too much? You think too much. That's what you said But I figured it out and it all rings true So I'm giving up but only on you I'm here on my knees but I feel a breeze There's wind in my sails I can go where I please I hear a song that I'm gonna sing I feel a heart beating within I'll see blue skies in each day that begins I feel a heart beating within