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Just more drafts n stuff. try n make one or 2 a day keep me stable. I hope someday I'll be back ok again. Hunting n fishing or just tracking. only kill now I do if I ever have to. and seems food is all I've learned how to produce in life. but I cant anymore idk it's not necessary around here ppl just trash the woods and shoot everything that moves around here. I mean yall suck as ppl too u. I've lived in Minneapolis Raleigh Durham n I say again. the low n no respect is I same here. Ppl say the Southside dirty? yeah because ppl from up here go there running from the snow. I'm born mostly rsided here. beautiful country but all are back stabbing ass snakes with friendly grins. Read some books get that iq up. nobody around here has yet to make me look bad as they've tried. none can read or right. lol unfortunately I now have no more electric guitar or my microphone. I'll get another soon maybe. I hope dont care. it's back to the acoustic. all that noise I make dont .mean . s**t Never heard anyone say it sounds good. heard p ppl l say it sucks but it's all really just for one or 2 ppl n they probably dont even remember me. Good. I wasn't always worthless. idk why I'm being like this. but the dealers feel like my only friends n no I'm not stupid n believin it just saying. somethings wrong here but maybe it's not me. idk. I love ya I do. Dad jake the pets we've had n still have. never see my family no more I go days without seeing anybody. If I was to die tho nows the time n place. I'm comfortable but damn it the cat Valley n mama the calico n smooch the male black n white with broken hip and the tiniest little girl black n white 1 and the black kitten born blind. Help them plz I couldnt I've failed my babys. those are my babys I cant leave them but my temper has gone haywire since I've been back In NY and you ducking better believe I'm not gonna hurt a soul just me. I'm more of a man then any will ever know. it's just I cant stand me anymore I'm getting really close and seriously telling myself to do it. I'm sorry I might survive but I dont want to I cant bare all the loss I've had n all the real pain waiting ahead. I'm ruined. lol never imagined ide really stop lo laughin n stuff. I'm hardly depressed it's more like hate I f*****g hate myself. N if any body reports me. go f**k yourself dont read or listen then idc I have nothing for yall just true love n blood. and honestly yall dislike regardless so yoo suck a d**k yall. get the f**k outta here then or vent below dont matter. nothing f***s with me or passes me anymore. sucks too sounds stupid ik but I'm loveless up here yall are dead inside. I found love in NC love most u will never know. it never dies it's TRUE but it will when I do. Ps not a thing u can say gonna change or stop me. My mind can do more then yours.